We were thrilled (and nervous) to find out we were pregnant with our second baby in April of 2024. We had a short time to enjoy telling our family, friends and most importantly our son that he would be a big brother. Our ultrasounds had shown little promise as my uterus appeared empty, but finally on May 30th there was our little baby! We experienced a brief moment of pure bliss before realizing our ultrasound tech was concerned and her face told me what my heart could not accept. “There is a baby, but there is no cardiac activity.” The room felt painted with grief, confusion and anger and the silence as she tried to scan for a heartbeat resulted in my stifled tears and willing our babies heart to beat again. We decided to name baby, who we will never know if they were a boy or girl, Aislin Almos, the meaning basically was that our baby is our sleepy dream, only a vision of the life we imagined we’d have. We’ve navigated our grief while also trying to be the best for our toddler, he often tells us he is playing with his “baby sister” and we find peace that somewhere, in another version of us, we are whole and complete. My heart and love are with parents who’ve lost their children, lost sight of their plans of their future and who are moving through this journey!
Child of Atziry & Zackarie Sera
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